Not gone, just moved

Not gone, just moved

This week in the classroom, I was not facilitator but participant.  Sitting with a group of my Pastoral Leaders, as I call them.  Women and men interested in leadership, whether for the sake of ministry in the church or, beyond, in the marketplace.  For five or six double sessions each year, I hand the classroom … Continue reading

Prison-barred words

Prison-barred words

The words back up.  Piling, one upon the other.  Stacking and toppling, until they are out of order, meaning tangled. Still I keep my mouth closed.  For how do I know that these words are yours and not mine?  These words which burn in my bones, taste like acid in my mouth.  Prophet or cynic?  Speaker … Continue reading

The grace of God

The grace of God

The grace of God first kills before it makes alive. How many times I have wanted to write that in five years.  To agree with those words attributed to Tom Torrance by one of his doctoral students, Ray Anderson. And yet I have not.  Because of originality.  Because of other more pressing writing.  Because I … Continue reading

Losing heart

Losing heart

We have this ministry and so we do not lose heart. We are the glory-carriers.  The ones whose eyes have been opened.  Who have seen the light which shines out of darkness.  We have seen the glory of God in the face of Christ.  And, beholding that glory, we are transformed from one degree of glory … Continue reading

I’m tired

I’m tired

I’m tired. I need to say this, though I don’t know how.  I thought I was OK but it turns out that the cost was greater than I knew.  So I see the church and, where once I knew passion which translated into tireless action, now as I dredge the depths of my heart I find nothing but a void. I need … Continue reading

Dismantling and energising

Dismantling and energising

Brueggemann talks about the prophetic imagination in some powerful ways.  For him, it is about an alternative consciousness with two lofty aims.  First, it quietly seeks to dismantle the dominant consciousness.  Then it hopes to energise the community of faith by promises of what will be. I see this in my own leadership and living.  That I … Continue reading

Grace of the real

Grace of the real

In his own time and way.  That’s his style. The real discloses itself, in its own time and way.  And when it does, it is grace. Esther Lightcap Meek, Loving to Know. I saw it again the other week, this disclosing of itself by the real.  Reality unfolded in act of grace.  A deadline I was working … Continue reading

You were in this place

You were in this place

You’d gone ahead.  Lit the lamps.  Again.  Made yourself at home.  And you were waiting. You were in this place and I didn’t know. In the second that my car passed the frontage of the property before turning in, I felt it.  That frisson of nerves.  Because of your proximity. Not that I even know … Continue reading

Remembering again

Remembering again

In some ways, to expect only gradual change may be all too easy a way of letting ourselves off the hook. Susan B. Williams and Peter R. Holmes, Meeting Jesus Together: Introducing Salugenic Community How is it that, despite knowing his ways, I am still surprised by discontinuous change?  Too often I tell myself to expect … Continue reading

Beloved

Beloved

Define yourself radically as one beloved by God.  This is the true self.  Every other identity is illusion. Brennan Manning, Abba’s Child Simple, really.  Though I make it so hard.  Yes, if you were to listen to the chunter of my heart, you would think he was impressed by everything that I’m not yet, perhaps even never will … Continue reading