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A scrappy work

A scrappy work

I never was a seasoned pastor’s wife.  We were church planters and that is scrappy work. Rosaria Champagne Butterfield, The Secret Thoughts of an Unlikely Convert I always thought I’d be a terrible pastor’s wife.  I don’t fit the stereotype.  And whilst there are so many pastors’ wives out there who don’t either, you know exactly which … Continue reading

Navigating by stars?

Navigating by stars?

Not so long ago I was faced with a choice.  An attractive offer, in some senses, I suppose.  And it came with a large side order of encouragement. But I said no. I said no without needing to think.  My brain engaged only concerning how to communicate the why of this no.  How to do … Continue reading

Prison-barred words

Prison-barred words

The words back up.  Piling, one upon the other.  Stacking and toppling, until they are out of order, meaning tangled. Still I keep my mouth closed.  For how do I know that these words are yours and not mine?  These words which burn in my bones, taste like acid in my mouth.  Prophet or cynic?  Speaker … Continue reading

The grace of God

The grace of God

The grace of God first kills before it makes alive. How many times I have wanted to write that in five years.  To agree with those words attributed to Tom Torrance by one of his doctoral students, Ray Anderson. And yet I have not.  Because of originality.  Because of other more pressing writing.  Because I … Continue reading

I’m tired

I’m tired

I’m tired. I need to say this, though I don’t know how.  I thought I was OK but it turns out that the cost was greater than I knew.  So I see the church and, where once I knew passion which translated into tireless action, now as I dredge the depths of my heart I find nothing but a void. I need … Continue reading

Impossible hope

Impossible hope

Sometimes someone else’s words capture the very thing you have been trying to say: The dreaming of impossible things in the Lord is the act of hope.  The act of hope does not ignore the chaos within and without, nor is it a dream for everything to be returned to the secure ways of the … Continue reading

Leading in disrupted space

Leading in disrupted space

I know more than I’d like about liminality.  Both in personal life and wider contexts of ministry.  And it shapes my perspectives on leadership.  Nothing is as simple as Newtonian models of leadership imply.  Listen to this: …liminal leadership spends a significant amount of time in disrupted space…Liminal leaders…create a lightly held holding place for the … Continue reading

Coming full circle

Coming full circle

Honesty comes, eventually, as a relief.  I’ve been waiting to write this post for months now.  Years even, perhaps, it has been in the making.  Though when God first whispers it seven years ago, you don’t listen that hard. You hear him.  But you second-guess yourself.  And you assume you heard wrong. Yet it turns out that … Continue reading