Wilderness shut-in

Wilderness shut-in

It caught me unawares as the Scripture sometimes does.  Wilderness, perhaps, the word which snagged on the edges of my consciousness.  Or shut them in.  For I have felt like that too. But I was not expecting to be caught on this verse of Exodus 14.  No, I was running ahead to the verse about the LORD fighting.  Only … Continue reading

The rope has been cut

The rope has been cut

The rope has been cut. Without great fanfare, the boat drifts from the pier.  No outboard motor.  No sail.  Just the pull of the currents, the eddying water. No one there to wave the boat off.  No one to journey through.  Just the boat and its occupants.  So much left behind in this wager, a wager which might … Continue reading

Impossible hope

Impossible hope

Sometimes someone else’s words capture the very thing you have been trying to say: The dreaming of impossible things in the Lord is the act of hope.  The act of hope does not ignore the chaos within and without, nor is it a dream for everything to be returned to the secure ways of the … Continue reading

Withstanding his wooing

Withstanding his wooing

You are to me the God who destroys.  You destroy with a conviction and a thoroughness quite breathtaking.  I said I wanted you and you took me at my word.  I said I wanted to risk wild grace, that grace which might first kill before it made alive, and you heard my prayer.  And as … Continue reading

Tears like hiccups

Tears like hiccups

Sometimes I reflect here on depression.  It’s part of my story, a bit like a virus that remains dormant most of the time but every so often comes out to play.  As I live, I learn more about how this thing called depression works.  I discover how I can live from a place in Christ and his … Continue reading

Leading in disrupted space

Leading in disrupted space

I know more than I’d like about liminality.  Both in personal life and wider contexts of ministry.  And it shapes my perspectives on leadership.  Nothing is as simple as Newtonian models of leadership imply.  Listen to this: …liminal leadership spends a significant amount of time in disrupted space…Liminal leaders…create a lightly held holding place for the … Continue reading

Discipline of joy

Discipline of joy

Fridays are for joy.  Once upon a time I knew this. I knew this and I practised it.  A discipline of joy.  And then I forgot it.  Or, at least, I pretended that Saturdays would do just as well, busy though they are with jobs and people and commitments.  And somehow these Saturdays started to become a day … Continue reading

Barrenness

Barrenness

He hears your prayers.  There is something you’ve been praying for and which you have not received.  He wants you to know that you will receive. This word has come twice in the last four or five months from one person I know a little and one who was a stranger to me.  The second time … Continue reading

Leading towards true north

Leading towards true north

…if a leader could learn to be a well-differentiated presence, by the very nature of his or her being he or she could promote differentiation and support creative imagination throughout the system…not by focusing on techniques for moving others, but by focusing on the nature of his or her own being and presence. Edwin H. … Continue reading

Destroying to remake

Destroying to remake

We don’t want to deconstruct our students, we said.  We know what theology can do to a person, turn them inside out and back to front. We don’t want to deconstruct our students.  But, oh, how I wish Jesus had such qualms with me.  Nearly two years of a deconstruction so massive that it is … Continue reading