(The source of all quotations in this post is Ross Collings, John of the Cross.) It is precisely the agonizing inability to grasp any conception of Jesus or his Father as an illuminating object of…prayer which constitutes the truest experience of faith ‘in the Passion of Christ’ – that is, subjectively, from within the redemptive … Continue reading
Day breathed, shadows fled and heart sealed with flashes of a fire the very flame of the Lord. Stood before Fire and lived. Now nearly six years since. And contract made that day, sealed with water and wine and oil. Contract irreversible, though small-print not then read. Stood before Fire and lived. So when he … Continue reading
Consciously claiming the desire to…be in or with something almost compels us into control. Gerald May, The Awakened Heart. I want to be with him. I have tasted and I have seen. And now I echo those words: to die is gain. I don’t want to live in shadowlands where presence is absence and Word sheer … Continue reading
I built myself a nice house of prayer. In fact, I was admiring it a couple of months back. Not, I hasten to add, because of pride. (Or, at least, not particularly?!) It was more gladness that I seemed to have a functioning shelter again after God detonated the last one. A controlled explosion is … Continue reading
The experiences of acedia and of dark night are similar. So similar, in fact, that I have spent years wrestling to tell them apart. And as the time and sand have banked up around me, breathing now getting harder, I am come closer to naming their difference. I am come closer to naming their difference … Continue reading
Those who know God most deeply have relearned the soul’s natural language of prayerful attentiveness to the divine. David Benner, Opening to God Twenty years, give or take, after becoming a Christian, God enrolled me in a school of prayer. And, to be honest, it’s been hard. Harder than the PhD that preceded it. Which, … Continue reading
Cloister. One word in summer 2019. And with it an entire season circumscribed. Not an evangelical kind of season, four to six months tops. But four years now. And, still to come, perhaps more. The promised ploughing-under, sabbatical of desolation for all the years gone before. Cloistered heart. And when he said it, I liked … Continue reading
Our goal as Christian leaders is not to put together a ministry like it is a prepackaged bicycle. Our goal is to help God’s people grow… If our goal is to help people grow, then we cannot follow the lay-out-the-steps model of leadership. What then can a Christian leader do? Scott Cormode, The Innovative Church I’m … Continue reading
Leadership and spirituality, he said. And I smiled at the rightness of it. This man had just named for me what he understood to be my space of academic contribution. But it’s more than leadership and spirituality. Spirituality focuses my interest within leadership. Because, in the end, what we’re leading the church towards is life … Continue reading
Align yourself with him. Fix your gaze on Jesus. And everything else, the transformation: that will follow. I heard myself say this at least twice in class this week. I was insistent about it. More insistent than I am about a lot of the content we cover. For, mostly, what we cover is theoretical academic … Continue reading
